I can’t believe this – while I was away in London for the weekend, it took all of five minutes to get back into the rhythm of being in a city. I’ve been back for more than one day, and I’m still missing that feeling of just having things within reach, where you actually see things happening around you. I know I’m whining too much about living in a small town, and yes, the town centre is just 15 minutes away by bus, and I have a big supermarket a short walk away.
But it’s just a really different feeling when you are in a small town. You feel a palpable sense of being part of things in a city as you move around, even when you are just in your room looking out of the window. You see and hear more people, and you know there are things and activities to occupy your time even when you are alone. There are more options available when you want a night’s out. You also feel an urge to be presentable when you leave the house, instead of just throwing on anything you see in front of you. These were what I really missed about living in a city, and just that short weekend brought it all back.
Having had all those without question ever since I was born was probably that largest obstacle I have to overcome living here in this small town. There is nothing happening in the vicinity, the highlight of your day could simply be a trip to that big supermarket I mentioned, while a trip to town definitely ends by 6pm because everything closes before that time. It isn’t convenient nor that safe to go out at night, and I don’t even do that very often since the alternatives are: clubbing (in school), clubbing (in town), drinks at the school bar (where everyone ends up drunk), drinks in a random house party (where everyone ends up drunk), or an excursion to a pub 25 minutes by foot.
Yes, I’m a student, and yes, I probably can study better without distractions, but seriously, if you were not motivated, any type of environment would provide distractions. I’ll freely admit that I’m an unashamed consumer of most things capitalist, and I love living in a place where I get to enjoy them freely and at my own pace. Many people are probably put off by the fact that nothing ever closes in big cities, but that’s the beauty of it. The city never sleeps, and you have something for everyone.
Of course, there will be times when the city gets too much, and you just want to escape from it all, see the beauty of nature, and explore the countryside. I get that way sometimes, but it goes away fairly quickly.
Maybe I’m a spoilt city girl. But at least I admit it and I make no apologies. To each his or her own, I say. That said, this year helped to open my eyes to how people outside cities live, and though I can’t say I like it, at least I experienced it. (And definitely spent much less than I would have if I stayed in a city in this country).